Odd really, I mean I consider myself rather an emotional type guy long before two weeks ago. But I have to say that since then the emotions are on a roller coaster ride. Its unreal how at the slighest hint of sadness I can tear up. Funny too how the slighest annoyance can make me see red too.
I suppose its part of whatever happened but damn its odd. I mean in the middle of tears I can rationalize the whole thing and just as suddenly as they come, they end too. Its bizarre to experience it all at once and know it as well. Yet it seems like there is no control over it, least not so far.
So tomorrow is the CAT scan and I suppose we’ll know soon enough if it was indeed a stroke. More I think about it, the more I am leaning towards it being the cause. I would prefer it to be the sugar levels as those are a lot easier to monitor and control.
Problem is I know so little about strokes that it is frightening. Is it manageable or not? Is it a forwarning of things to come or can they be put aside? Not simple answers and with Google giving loads of shit results on searches these days, well it gets more frustrating than ever.
The emotional side is weird but I think the frustration too is eating away. I just wish it was all over with one way or the other. Least then I’d know more of what to plan for.
