Or is it that one simply adapts to Life itself?
Interesting thoughts as I sit here waiting for the morning and another day. Today is blood tests and some kidney stuff too. Not too sure but I am rather hoping those are where the doctor will find the culprit that send me for a loop nearly two weeks ago. I sure as hell don’t want to think it was the stroke option.
Though in all honesty I am leaning in that direction.
To begin with the dizziness and unequal balance for that length of time surely is stroke indicitive, though also inner ear infection.
What is also stroke indicitive is the numbness on the left side and loss of motor skills of the pinky and finger next to it on the left side. Being a touch typist the little pinky just isn’t happy about hitting the ‘a’ key as it used to.
Then too there is the loss of spelling. A lot of my typing was pretty bang on when it came to spelling words. Now the backspace key sure is used a lot more often. Too there is the time in recognizing the errors. I mean I used to type the way I speak. Now I have to read what I am typing which isn’t good for a touch typist. Kind of odd isn’t it?
Then too there is the slurred ‘s’ words. Now the Doctor noticed it after i mentioned it, though Dave didn’t. He did say when he listened he could detect it a bit, but not noticeable. Again that would indicate a stroke with a pretty full recovery. So that is encouraging to a degree.
What isn’t encouraging is that one has to wait not knowing what one is supposed to do if it is a stroke. I mean to me, a stroke is a warning but so far the doctor hasn’t said Boo about what to do to prevent a recurrence or how to minimize them. Instead he had basically kept quiet and that pisses me off.
I have a pretty decent imagination too, and so you can imagine how its been behaving since seeing the doctor. I mean it really is hard to go to sleep because the head isn’t so sure it’ll wake up again. Plus too there is soo much to do, that one tends to want to get it all finished just in case. Course just in case for what?
Is a stroke life altering?
Yes in so many ways it is indeed. I noticed that a bit earlier tonight actually. I didn’t think it would but it does. It makes one take the stairs differntly, makes one a bit more unwilling to start new projects but does tend to make one finish old ones. It is interesting in some ways, frightening in others. I just haven’t decided yet which it is. Bad or Good.
I know that Doctors need to spend more time with their patients at these times than not. It isn’t that we need hand holding, but shit it is scary to think of when you don’t knnow everything you should. What should I be watching for? What about low dose aspirin? Hell should I even have aspirin or what?
Take for example that at the moment I am a bit constipated. So in the past I”d just take a pill and let it do its stuff. Now, I am wondering if I should. I haven’t a clue what all that shit is in those pills so if I take it will it suddenly get the heart racing or what? Again, lack of communications with the Doctor who should know.
It is weird to think that one’s time is so finate, yet at 51 I know that time is running out. Still having a stroke this early, I mean it scares you and then you wonder, who do you tell? Like yes Dave knows but come on, he’s 29 and death is far off for him. Hard for him to rationalize or even imagine, so who do you talk to? And what if it isn’t? I mean what if the tests come back as the hoped for blood sugar scenario? Feel like a fool then.
Still it does once more hit home why Doctors really do need to spend time discussing this. And this is perhaps the one major knock against National Health Plans. THey become more of an assembly line type procedure rather than more than that. Something supposed Private Medicine offers its patients, but does it?
I look around and while my head is a bit screwed up I kind of think that it isn’t really National Health at fault, but humanity itself. In so many ways we have forgotten that we are all people, and deserve a bit more than a passing glance when things are wrong.
I listen to Bush and Harper and about their Family Values and I used to get upset. Still do but I am trying to put it into perspective. I think they have it right, that we are indeed seeing a lowering of importance of Family Values or Old Fashioned Values but the solution isn’t to degrade them more.
Bush wants constitutional amendments to change things, and even Harper wants to use the Not Withstanding Clause but in all honesty, the answer lies elsewhere. It lies in us, the people.
If we don’t adapt to the changes we die out.
How many times have we all heard that? Yet it is true to a point, but does adapting mean abadoning the very things that got us here? Take caring for others as an example. I mean how many people automatically turn their radio down at 10pm or lower the volume on the television at that time? Or do we simply ignore it and if it is pissing off the neighbours, do we care?
If we cared, we’d lower the volume. Trouble is that in the past we would, today we don’t. That is perhaps what truly needs to change, not with laws or amendments, but by action.
If Bush would stand up and tell the people the truth and what he truly feels, then maybe it would filter down. Same goes for his ass kissing confeditorate Harper. Instead of hiding out amidst cloaks of secrecy and attacks they’d just tell us the blasted truth maybe they might get more support.
Course in Harper’s case he might not know what he wants. Or if he does, he doesn’t want us to know because he knows no one up here would support his concept of equality and freedom. Just as most in the USA wouldn’t support Bush’s concepts either. Yet maybe they would. I mean they see outrageous murder rates but won’t listen to gun control. So maybe.
But enough of those two. I can feel the Blood Pressure rising and somehow I don’t think that is a good thing.
What about diet and exercise?
Are there specifiic foods I should stay clear of until we know if it was a stroke or not? WHat about specific foods that might help ease the strain on the heart? That would be nice to know but again, nothing from the Doctor.
